Requirement.

What i need is an awesome , sudden life altering experience. I don’t know of which kind but it definitely needs to come soon assuming that my ability to focus and remember things the way i used to has diminished like anything.

I am pissed. This is not what i used to be. I had presence of mind, common sense, a good physiology and a decent brain. an eccentric mind. Not a calm one. I had dreams and ambition and now i am a frustrated guy in his final year wondering if i’ll get my clinical cases signed tomorrow. This college, this lifestyle all of it is killing me. I need a break. Not a vacation. A break. I need to be able to be doing something else. I’ll be glad when the Perio posting is over man.
And then i lose my phone and I’m not affected by it. How come? I should have made it a priority to get the SP’s to trace my phone through the police. I should have used pressure. I could have done a lot and i did nothing. I just bunked the next day and was chilling like an idiot.
There are things going on. Exams are coming and I’m wasting my time drinking and watching TV shows.
I am depending on other people for things. It is so pathetic. I feel so pathetic man. Useless. I thought i was so much more and then this place is trying to convince me otherwise.
Man….let final year be over. In eight months all this bullcrap will be over. I’ll be an intern and i’ll be studying for myself. And i’ll be working to make MYSELF a better professional. Not to keep some bitch of a professor happy.

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